- Fourth of July spent in OC w/ mostly family.
- Grandpa<33 Love him! Fun times w/ him. Kung Fu Panda movie? BOMB. He was chuckling the whole time(=
- RALPHS! Helllla’ funny occurrence there.
- Family time (?) I guess you could call it that.
- Fireworks, sortaaaa’. Not really though.
- Shopping w/ cousins today!
- Laundry +other chores. Can you say, BORING?!
- NAP! Mmm, finally got some sleep.
- Hot, hot, hot. This weather is skgjhs. I don’t need a tan!
- TO DO: Lose weight. I’m not happy w/ myself atm.
- Poway. Wow, lamest trip there. Whatever though.
- Dinner w/ family! MMMM, good stuff.
- Guess who I saw? AMANDA baby!<3 Aka, “boyfriend”.
- Sorta’ saw her boyfriend, not really though. Parents were around.
- FACT: Helllllla’ misssed her!<3 Unexpected, but (=
- Incident IN the restaurant, fucking hilarious. I almost choked on my water cas’ of it.
- Good laughs while driving home.
- My dad +I are, sorta’, borderline okay. Not the best, but somewhat better.
- My mom tried to create some “jokes”, ending in her NOT succeeding.
- Grandma’s surgery, again. SOON. )=
- During prayer, I needa’ remember to keep in mind: Nevermind, totally lost my thought.
- “When you love someone truly +completely, it’s not that difficult to trust them” Somewhat true, not completely. It’s a learning process though(=
- Driving test soon! Fuck, fuck, fuck.
- SMOKE = NOT GOOOOOOOD! That man needsa’ loosen up his hold on his cigarettes. I can’t breathe in that condition, shit.
- Random: I misss you!)= // Things’ needa’ start looking up already.
Okays! Till next time. I hope all of you are well!<3 Bye darlings’ (=
This weekend! Going to OC/Santa Ana/Mission Viego again! Hella’ excited. I get to spend time with my grandparents +aunts/uncles, probably some cousins. Maybe though. Plans could be cancelled. I miss my grandparents, like crazy. I have this constant need to be closer to them. I somewhat, feel like I’m apart of a family when I’m around them. The love surrounding them, it’s undeniable. I love the feeling<3 Things’ in my life are sorta’ getting better? It’s still hectic +all, but clearly not as bad. Trying to cope with things at the moment. I think, maybe .. things’ will be okay(= My family, as in my parents +my brother, not so good. But s’all good! I guess? I’m slowly getting used to having my parents being the way they are. As complicated as it is, things’ are going a lot better for the two of them. My moms a lot happier, and so is my brother. To me, that’s all that matters. As cold as it may seem, I don’t have that “loving” feelings towards my dad anymore. It’s sorta’ whatever with him. MMMM! I miss some of my mains +friends, I needa’ get in contact with them +stay in contact. I feel like I’ve lost them, but somewhere deep down, I know I haven’t. My true friends understand me, and I’m good with that. I don’t need a lot of people surrounding me. Oh! I was driving yesterday +some ass decided to honk at me. When I OBVIOUSLY did nothing wrong. A car was freaking turning. It’s not like I was gonna’ go turning at the same time. I’m not ready for an accident, thanks asshole! Other then that, it was good(= HAHA. Good news, sorta’? I’m not that sick anymore. I’ve been losing +gaining weight though, which is annoying the heck outta’ me. I’ve always had problems with my weight. To add onto that, it doesn’t help that I’m insecure. Dealing with it though? Mmm. That’s all for now? I don’t know. I haven’t been blogging much. Whatever though. I’ll try to get on more often +post stuff when I feel like it! Anyways, goodbye darlings!<3
I don’t like bugs. A spider was crawling on me, and I freaked. I don’t know how I’m gonna’ sleep tonight. After the spider crawling on me, and the fact that I’m sick. The weather isn’t helping either. I feel like I’m burning up, but my skin feels cold. My dad was upset with me earlier for the dumbest thing. He yelled at me because I was sick. Again, it’s not my fucking fault. He’s so unreasonable at times, I could punch him. Mom bought me food, thank goodness! I didn’t eat all day, until an hour +a half ago. My brother called me. It was cute. We’re a lot closer now, I’m good with that. He asked if I could pick him up later with my dad. That, I don’t know about. But for him, I’ll probably try to go. Church was odd, I was walking to go pick up my dad on the other side of church, and a group of boys were sitting +standing outside. One of them yells out as I pass by “Oh, look! A hot girl” Okaaay? I guess. Not in the mood for much. I had something in my mind, and I wanted to say something about it. But, the thought is gone. I’ma go watch some t.v., and hopefully that’ll make me feel tired. Till next time!
